Pausing Perfectionism: Lessons of Cannabis and Motherhood

What I’ve learned from both podcasting, cannabis and motherhood, is the importance of the pause.

Podcasting requires it; cannabis allows it; and motherhood is better when we stop and pay attention to the people we love.

And with that great insight I’ve decided it’s important for me to care for real cannabis plant, because I love cannabis and I want to know how to care for her. This means that I’m learning something I’m not really that interested in or have any natural inclination for or any real motivation to pursue prior to this decision.

I am not into gardening, but I have successfully grown two children.

I hear that hanging out with plants is healthy, and I understand the stress I’m feeling as I begin this cannabis growing journey is the good kind of stress. This stress reminds me that what I am doing is not easy and I will make mistakes, as all caregivers do, but it’s not the type of stress that will break me.

I’ve survived the stress of parenting two humans. I’m positive I can care for three plants because I’ve learned that being good enough is really the best we can do.

As you may know, for the past two month I’ve been studying with Aja Atwood of Trella Technologies, learning how to grown my own cannabis. I’ve spent the past two-months watching and re-watching videos, posting chat questions, learning about photons and biology and chemistry. Not subjects I’m very good at, but I’m taking this very seriously and trying my best. 

I’ve finished all my shopping to make sure my girls have everything they need: a good tent with the right lights planted in nutrient rich soil and a slew of measuring devices I’m still learning to use.

Honestly, I feel more prepared to raise my cannabis plants than I was to raise my own children.

I’m ready thanks to Aja.

This program has been great because Aja is an expert in her field and a proud and spiritual teacher. In addition to learning how to grow your own plants, she throws in some great life lessons too.

Plants, like people, need light and are always searching for the light. And like us, they can handle a certain amount of stress but too much and you can break them.

I’m proud of my baby seedlings and excited to watch them mature. Literally they will bloom before my eyes over the next few months and I’ll be sharing this adventure with you.

I’m their caregiver and I’m proud of my girls and will do my best because once I am done caring for them, like good children, they will care for me.